Tuesday, June 18, 2013
On Sunday, I was asked to lead our home group. I prepared a lesson from the sermon series of Isaiah where he is commissioned as a prophet to Israel. One couple showed up and I am pretty sure they came because I ran into them downstairs and asked if they were coming. I ditched my lesson and took the time to get to know them better. It was time well spent and arguably a divine appointment. But that did not stop me from reflecting on the low attendance level and the effort wasted on preparing my lesson. It didn't stop me from getting discouraged and wondering what God is up to.
He hasn't left His throne and I haven't questioned for a moment that He is in charge. I just wonder if I am serving in the area of ministry that I should be. I don't think I'm making much impact. And I keep coming back to one of two scenarios that could be in play here...a sort of multiple choice that I am praying through. Either God wants me to (a) learn and be alright with playing to an audience of one with the understanding that He (if no one else) is watching, reading, and enjoying how I share my faith. Or perhaps (b) the lack of interest is my sign to hang up these hats and move on. Find a place and a method where I am more effective. I can honestly say that I do not know the right answer. At least not yet.